According to Jessicka in her statement, one of the reasons why it took her so long to come out with her story was the record label that Jack Off Jill was signed to;

In 1997, I was warned by my band’s record company that if I revealed my story publicly, there would be a very good chance that my band Jack Off Jill would be black balled by concert promoters, radio programmers, and other bands and their managers. Jack Off Jill was also warned of running the risk of losing our coveted record deal (which they gave us!!,) as they were certain no one would ever take a rape victim in this male dominated music business seriously, nevermind a ferocious, disenfranchised, outspoken overweight front woman such as myself! The label blatantly feared the big machine behind Marilyn Manson would use their power to destroy not only Jack Off Jill, but my name, Jessicka, as well. The pressure and guilt of the inevitable repercussions of my rape story affecting my band’s livelihood, happiness and success kept me silent for years.

Have to include here a great point the Gala Sisters made, that she self identifies as an overweight woman? I doubt a record label representative would have brought that up as a point as to why people wouldn't take her seriously. Her wight is something that was brought up throughout her career, she prided herself in being someone who doesn't fit the beauty standards and is herself unapologetically. This claim with also accusations of Jeordie fat shaming her in the same story kind of do raise the question, was she herself the one insecure about this? Is this something she thought of herself rather than something a record label representative told her? That's a pretty outrageous thing to say? Someone's appearance has nothing to do with their credibility, I would imagine that had this actually been said to her, she would also address the label by name, as this would've been a horrible thing to say to an alleged rape victim. What label was it and why isn't it named?

Let's talk about the label. The fact that the record label i left unnamed is weird, considering that by Jessicka's social media, it has been seemingly her message to expose the abuse and misogyny in the male dominated music scene. Why is this record label then left unnamed. It becomes even a bigger question mark when you know what happened with it. 

Jack Off Jill was signed to Risk records in 1997. They released their debut full album, Sexless Demons and Scars through risk in September of the same year. After that, in November 1998, they released a remix EP Covetous Creature. Coming up to the release of their second album Clear Hearts, Grey Flowers though, Risk went bankrupt and Jack Off Jill was left with no record label or proper promotion for their album. This, combined with the problems between the members of the band, especially co-founder Robin Moulder and Jessicka Addams, lead up to Jack Off Jill disbanding soon after. 

Jessicka, in her own words, was "Frustrated with the record industry and vowed never to be in another band"

Why couldn't she include the name of this defunct record label? If it doesn't even exist anymore, and without the help of wayback machine, pretty much nothing could be found about it online. Naming it would only add to the credibility of the story for the reader. And by how hard she was going after Marilyn Manson for simply having Jeordie in his band still in 2017, one would think that she would also name the exact record company employee who'd told her the things she claimed she was told.

In fact, some people including myself in the beginning thought the problem was that the bands were on the same label, but that was not the issue. 

Was Risk records left unnamed because some of the people that worked there still do work in the music business and could go to the press commenting on whether or not this ever actually happened? I managed to contact one person who worked at Risk, leaving him anonymous because he couldn't tell me anything relevant, but this person for example had moved forward to work in artist management. 

So, when Jack Off Jill broke up in 2000, Jessicka was frustrated with the industry and vowed to never play in another band. She had no record deal to lose at this point anymore? Then, two years later Jeordie left Marilyn Manson so there was no "big machine" to fear either. Still, he had to come back to Marilyn Manson and play almost a decade in the band until this story was out?

Another problem with this record label claim is this: 

Planning to come out with such a story, Jessicka would likely have discussed it with her band members, if not only to seek support as she was preparing for backlash from the public, but also to discuss what the band would do as a whole. Knowing this would probably at least somehow affect their reputation, she'd probably consulted with the band mates somehow. Remember, Jack Off Jill was a feminist band! So knowing all this, why would the band as a whole want to even tour with Marilyn Manson in 1999?

Of course, Jessicka says it was something they were "convinced to do by the record label" later in her statement. But again, why is the record label not named as Jack Off Jill now works to expose the misogyny in the music scene? 

It would be quite a terrible thing for a record label to do: First, tell a rape victim to stay silent because money and then tell said victim to work together with the rapist because money. It's quite a serious claim! Shouldn't the people in the music business know whose priorities are all wrong?

And why I also find this "I even toured with Manson in 1999 because I was pressured to do so by our record company" suspicious... Well not only is there the comment from Jeordie's cousin on Facebook, where she said she'd witnessed Jessicka backstage saying she'll always love Jeordie... But also:


She leaves it unmentioned that Jack Off Jill toured with Marilyn Manson in December 1994, which would be basically right after the alleged rape, as "cheating on NIN tour" would place that in fall 1994. 

This tour in December 1994, it was very often mentioned in interviews (which are included on the allegations against Jessicka page as they're relevant to that situation) as it was very memorable due to Jessicka being arrested on that tour. This, at the time was shared by her as a fun experience. Why is this tour left unmentioned? As well as later shows in summer 1995 supporting Marilyn Manson? 

Well and these shows on that 1994 tour or the shows in 1995, Jessicka can't blame the record label for. They were not signed! At that point Jack Off Jill had not been even signed to Risk Records yet and therefore they were not "in a bad position because of their record company". At this point, in 1994-1995, JOJ was releasing cassettes and 7'' singles through Jessicka's own independent label called Rectum Records. JOJ also opened for Manson with the witness Pete's band Notch Above Kafka in summer 1995, still yet to be signed to Risk.

Why is this tour not mentioned, it's even MORE a question why on earth would Jack Off Jill tour with Marilyn Manson? Is it partly because it seems her target audience she wanted to react to this was Manson fans, who generally don't seem to know about this tour as when it's mentioned in LHROOH, Manson doesn't mention Jessicka being there at all and tells the story as if he'd been the only one arrested that night, as Jessicka was erased from LHROOH for some unknown reason.

It just is very interesting that she only mentions that 1999 tour with grief as if it was the only time, explains it with the record label that she won't name, then leaves out the much earlier tour that would've been right after the alleged rape, and during which they were not signed to any label.


And in Jessicka's quest to expose the misogyny and abuse in the music business, somehow this record label that allegedly did not care for her safety or for her mental wellbeing and pressured her into touring with someone she was so traumatized by, isn't mentioned by name? 

These people do still work in the music business, I have done research on this and attempted to contact some... Wouldn't they have been asked to comment on this ...? No I guess, just mystery record label. Really serious claims but let's not look anything up. 


Additionally:  I have been emailed about a message on reddit made by a since deleted throwaway account "BLACKJUZAM" of "someone close to Twiggy's family who worked at Risk in 1997." 

I contacted this person, we had a long detailed discussion. I was very interested in what this person was saying and was at like 90% of believing this guy for a while.... BUT: After a while of thinking about it and how to write about it I'm pretty sure this guy wasn't legit. Therefore I will not include the screenshot on this page. If you see it being discussed and shared you can link this page and what I'm saying. 

- I was initially contacted about this by a person who had been a member on the very same messageboards, part of the same online circles that this "Risk guy" was claiming to have been "known and recognizable" from, and this person said they had no idea whatsoever about who this could be, but said I should still look deeper into it. This person tipped me about ancient messaging groups that I looked up but couldn't find any mention of the discussions this "Risk guy" had talked about. 

- Risk guy wanted to stay anonymous which would mean his accounts of what he thinks happened and what he'd personally witnessed would have to be altered so much that I'm pretty sure that the publishable story wouldn't portray things as accurately as they should be for them to be useful in the context they'd be needed. Even so that despite me telling him that he would be able to review what's being said and nothing he doesn't want public would not be posted, still, this guy couldn't verify anything and kept saying basically trust me bro. Then he deleted his account so I can't "ethically" post about it anyway without possibly revealing too much as I can't ask.

-While Risk guy provided a lot of information that wasn't widely known, a lot of it was still public information, and one thing for example that he provided to me as basically "insider info" seemed to me to be just him misunderstanding a certain recent interview. It's also suspicious that some of the things would only be mentioned after I mentioned them, as if this person was kind of making shit up based on what I knew, like "yeah I totally remember that I was there..."

-Biggest doubt was that this person kept bringing up a certain detail about Jeordie's personal life that if true and made public could be upsetting/embarrassing for him, therefore I had very little options as to how to find out if this was actually true or if I was being trolled. This thing was shared with "bet you didn't know this? have you ever heard of this? How have you NOT heard of this?" but even fans that had been around basically forever that I asked couldn't say they'd heard of this "fact" and that it's "Probably not true, I got people I could ask but I don't know, could be." 

I will say this "fact" had absolutely nothing to do with the allegations, it was in no way relevant to the topic at all, and it wouldn't have been published anyway, it's just that had it been false, it would kinda make the rest of this person's words sound even more suspicious and I wouldn't trust at all.  Have no idea if it's true or false but I don't care honestly, if I do end up finding out maybe then I can believe Risk guy but now that I've gone through our discussions a few times... - I don't think there's actually anything of substance I could write about it, this was all very vague.

-Also, Risk guy said he was "very close to Twiggy's family" but spent more time asking me what I know about his life as of lately and asking me about how things were, which he wouldn't have been doing had he actually been close to his family in the present. Also, Jeordie's family has stayed out of this drama very strictly and has never interacted with this site or me in any way, I find it suspicious that someone allegedly "very close to them" wouldn't get the memo and shut up themselves. They don't want to be involved. Also "very close to Twiggy's family" in private discussion changed to "I knew his [family member] in the 90's" and from the way he talked about it, kinda came off as him not having been close to anyone in his family in the last 20 years or so.

-"Have been close to Twiggy's family since 94" in private messages turned to earlier as Risk guy discussed friendship to [family member] and that they were already friends at the time of Jeordie joining Marilyn Manson in 1993.

Could say that if this person was anywhere near Jeordie in 1992-1999 it was probably so that he was kinda in the same social circles but didn't know him as well as he claims. More like, a fan who knew someone who knew someone who knew him. Or just someone making stuff up, maybe an old fan amused that some kid is this interested in shit that happened a million years ago.

If I'm wrong and u wanna tell me more, you know how to contact me. Also if you know more on "BLACKJUZAM" you can contact me too.

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