And if, as she claims, she had been saying "MY BODY MY CHOICE" loud and proud at 18, why has this never come up before, there's only been talk about that dress issue. It's very interesting, I'd imagine for example mother's day posts on social media could make her feel sad that she couldn't be a mother? Of course - she might want to concentrate on positive things more than painful and just post appreciative things about her own mother. But considering her social media presence that revolves very much around trauma, suffering and mental illness, feminist issues and bringing up Jeordie, I find it a little strange that I have never seen her mention this on social media, for example on a mother's day related post.

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It just looks like the only reason Jeordie is in this story is for shock value, because the quality of the procedures, the laws on abortion and the accessibility of such treatments is not an issue that is anything that Jeordie could control in any way? And maybe she realized that too, because then suddenly she has to bring up Jeordie being fired and add this "my rapist wanted to fuck" thing, like she realized he had no control over the situation, the condom breaking is not his fault either, she just wanted to create this mental image of how he just doesn't care about her safety. 

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"I had not had sex many times" is also interesting, she's building this image of herself as this inexperienced and innocent girl who didn't know any better, but if you have followed her career, this sounds a bit...

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Seconds, 1998:

Seconds: I'd like to ask some questions about sex -
Jessicka: You can ask me.

Seconds: How old were you when you lost your virginity?
Jessicka: I was fifteen. It was in a van.

Seconds: Oh, that's tawdry!
Jessicka: In a van behind a synagogue.

Seconds: Were you drunk?
Jessicka: I had a drink but I don't think I was drunk. Actually, we were drinking Manischewitz.

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Then there's the song Cum Dumpster that was included already in 1995 on a cassette, Cannibal Songbook

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Really wondering would someone who's barely had any sex ever write a song like that. Or in general, just the whole JOJ stage thing and everything, what, bringing guys on stage and making them pull their pants down, Jessicka has been described to put jellybeans in her panties and throw in them into the audience etc... Someone who does stuff like this in front of a lot of people is probably comfortable and confident with sexuality in general and not all new to it and innocent like she now wants to claim.

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You also may remember the whole discussion about her being called a groupie in LHROOH and sleeping with at least Sara Lee Lucas from Marilyn Manson around these times. And I have received messages of people claiming they're friends with someone from the scene at the time and have heard that Jeordie definitely was not Jessicka's first boyfriend and she was sleeping around a lot. This I cannot confirm, so take it as it is, but I hear this thing from multiple people who claim to have been there or to know someone who was there at the time. If she did, nothing wrong with that, hey, sex drugs and rock n roll, but if you change your own narrative it looks sketchy. 

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She has also earlier expressed that she doesn't want kids? and now she's like trying apparently very hard as she's had seven miscarriages. Well, why has she never talked about that issue before either, in her feminist activism, I have never seen her discuss infertility issues before or after this post? Do correct me if I'm wrong. And, seven miscarriages? How much things have been twisted around and made worse than they actually are, no, not buying this. 

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Interviews from the 90's in this case are totally irrelevant though because the opinion on whether or not someone wants kids can definitely change through the years. 

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Like sorry I'm not sorry, this looks made up. She just conventionally happens to have a new Jeordie story every time. 

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And you know what's really interesting?

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One of Jessicka's favorite movies that she lists as an inspiration is Palindromes. (watch trailer on youtube here) This movie describes the story of a girl called Aviva who wishes to have a lot of children. She becomes pregnant as a teenager and has to have an abortion, which ends up botched so they perform a hysterectomy on her and fail to tell her about it. Throughout the movie, Aviva is portrayed by different actors, there's a different person playing the character for different "chapters" and two of these actors closely resemble Jessicka. The movie includes multiple sex scenes, and in all of them, Aviva is just laying there, staring at the ceiling like she is just an object when an older male has sex with her. Aviva also wears a very Jessicka style pink dress. She talks with a small voice like a child, it's very uncomfortable to watch.

 

This all is very close to how Jessicka portrays herself in her claims of an abusive relationship. She doesn't know any better, she's dragged along and people are telling her what to do and taking advantage of her. Very different to the loud, opinionated feminist frontwoman she was in the 90's. 

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So, if we put this to a timeline;

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In the 90's, Jessicka said she wouldn't want to have children. This opinion can change with time, a lot of people change their minds over the years. but it's a detail nonetheless. 

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Jessicka interviewed for Issue 5 of the Official Jack Off Jill newsletter, February 1998:

--Do you want marriage and children someday?

  "No."

--Really?!  But I know you love kids!

  "There are certain aspects to the way I was raised...I don't think I would do well with my **own** children.  With my family tree -- I kind of want to 'nip it in the bud' here and now.  And besides, I am too much of a child myself still to be able to do a good job with a child!  But again - who knows
what the future will bring?!"

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During the career of Jack Off Jill, women's reproductive rights are not a subject of song lyrics and even later on, it does not seem to be an issue Jessicka feels strongly about, as for example mentioned above, she talks about body positivity and gay marriage on her website. I mean, she does talk about abortion rights, has talked about it, but it's been more so in context of the right to having an abortion, not the aftermath of a botched one. One could expect difficulties in becoming pregnant to also have been an issue she's talked about, had this been such a personal issue? She may have been pro choice, she probably has always been, but at least I have never seen her bring this issue up before this instagram post as something that she feels strongly about or has experience in personally. This is not even included in the 2017 statement, even though it fits into the timeline of events.

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But in her instagram post about having an abortion, she mentions seeing someone else's post about having an abortion and it "allowing her to examine her own experiences."

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Now, you know I don't believe her, I have a whole website about it. But if she wanted to have a story too and use it to further harm Jeordie's reputation, she would have to make up more and to add to her earlier claims,

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If something hasn't happened to you, where do you find reference to what it's like? Probably movies and TV and documentaries. It's very interesting that her abortion story, while being inconsistent with her earlier statements and the general narrative, also is VERY similar to one of her favorite movies, basic inspirations, Palindromes. If you do not believe me, you can watch it and email me what do you think. 

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Palindromes is mentioned twice on Jessicka's website if you go see it with Wayback Machine, these snaps are from 2014 from the updated FAQ: