Now, I think I have established now that I don't believe the story Jessicka published in October 2017. But it's a whole another layer to dare to look at it as a fictional story. Because, – and I'm not the only one who's made this observation, it really looks like one. It is. Things are impossible, and as a fellow fan commented to me in instagram private messages; ”It's got these weird parts like the stacking Tvs thing that is almost like she's writing a song or something. It's like a metaphor to something more than anything and just like you said, where the hell did he get those Tvs from and how?” So, let's look at it from the point of view of Fiction

Jessicka is an artist, after all: She paints, she writes songs, she is a writer, she's said she wants to also be an illustrator. Building fictional scenarios is something she knows very well how to do. So what is this text?


I'll begin this yet again with a movie, Storytelling by Todd Solondz. This is once again one of Jessicka's favorites that actually gives a very good starting point and a perspective to the allegations.


You can find the full script online here. 


After Jessicka published her accusations and they were picked up by the media, she dyed her hair pink. I don't think it was an intentional reference to this movie, rather I'd say it was an interesting coincidence that made me think of this movie, Storytelling. A ”Life imitates art” situation. As the main character of the first half of the story, Vi, has a similar hair style. We'll get into how that is interesting in a moment.


Storytelling is a film that's divided into two different stories, Fiction and Non-Fiction.


The first half, ”Fiction,” let me just copy the summary from a review;


 The first, "Fiction," is about a college creative writing student (Selma Blair) whose boyfriend (Leo Fitzpatrick) has cerebral palsy. "You wanna hear my short story now?" he asks her immediately after sex, and it is clear he is trading on sex as a way to win an audience. Although he is the "cripple," that gives him an advantage in her politically correct cosmos, and he milks it. Later, when they've broken up, he observes sadly, "The kinkiness has gone. You've become kind."

She moves on to a one-night stand with her writing professor (Robert Wisdom), a forbidding black man whose tastes run toward rough rape fantasies. She goes looking for trouble, but finds she doesn't like it, and writes a tearful, defiant story about their encounter. When the other students tear it to shreds, she weeps, "But it's the truth!" All three of these characters are using the pose of "writer" as a way to get sex, get their work read, or both, sometimes at the same time.


The main character with the pink hair, Vi, has a one night stand with a teacher, an older black man whose rough fantasies she's aware of. This one night stand is shown in the movie. She regrets it, she doesn't like it, and then she writes a story about it in the writing class and reads the story out loud to the whole class. It does not match the truth, it is shown that she undresses herself willingly, bends over and leans against a wall willingly, yet in her story, she describes the teacher ”slamming her” against the wall. The sex scene is portrayed as a rape in her story.


Her classmates see it as a fictional story, because that is the context it is presented to them; in a creative writing class. The classmates don't like it, they find the story racist, sexist and just overall bad. A student who also has slept with the teacher sees right through the story and calls it out.


The criticisms are then interrupted by Vi's defending the story, screaming tearfully ”But it happened!” and her boyfriend also, deeply hurt, screaming ”She told the truth!”


To this, the teacher says: ”I don't know about what happened, Vi. But once you start writing, it all becomes fiction.”


In the context of the allegations, this is an interesting movie. Vi's boyfriend defends her, because she has told him that same story as truth. It being ”the truth” is the only defense they have for the story, even though it's presented in a creative writing class and it would be no wonder for others to take it in as a fictional story.


Similarly, even though Jessicka's story is actually pretty offensive and even impossible, it can be defended always with ”But I told the truth.” so if the intention was to harm Jeordie, she could say absolutely anything and defend it with ”But it's the truth” and I think that ends up being the downfall of the story actually. Because it's so obviously untrue. She went too far. But she realized that if she tells a fictional story, no matter how offensive, in the context of truth, the public feels morally obligated to believe her and ignore the problems in it: the people in the classroom would not have criticized Vi's story like they did, had it been told them as a "true story." 


Also, the alleged rapist is in the room, one of the people listening to the story. He knows what happened, he was there, he remembers it, and he's expected a comment on it. But he can't really correct it because it would then put him in a bad position. But from his position, he sees the difference between the truth and the fiction and he knows what was changed. And his comment, ”Once you start writing, it all becomes fiction” also serves as a reminder that the intention behind telling a story can change how it's delivered, how it's worded.


Similar to this, Jeordie knows what happened and what didn't happen. Telling this story to him serves no purpose, he knows already what he remembers. The only thing he will notice is the parts that aren't true, the parts that differ from his memories. Is there a message to him, whether subconscious or intentional? If the story is in fact fictional, what does it actually say? What if it really is a chance to say something she's wanted to say for a long time, but can't get through to him because he won't acknowledge her? He never has, after all. So what does she want to tell him?


There are a few things that stick out from Jessicka's story. The car, the rearview mirror and the stacked TV's. The way he burns stuffed animals in the oven when he's angry. All of these parts sound untrue, they sound like song lyrics or poems or metaphors. They are simply symbolism. It's not hard to see through that.


I'll get the stuffed animals part out of the way first; it was said that Jeordie burned Jessicka's stuffed animals in the oven because he was angry that Jessicka came home late.


So why do I not believe this part? - It takes a while for an oven to get hot enough to melt or burn a stuffed animal. Throwing something into the oven in a rage would likely be a rather spontaneous act. I'd find it quite unlikely that he'd set the oven on high when waiting for her just so that it was ready, especially when this ”coming home late” would, - in the time of cellphones and social media being nonexistent, be a situation where he doesn't know when Jessicka will be home. So did they wait together for the oven to get hot or what?


Another thing is that outside the Twiggy character, it's been discussed on Hour Of Goon for example, Jeordie is a person who loves cooking. He's said that if he wasn't a musician, he'd probably have a restaurant or work in one. Why would he ruin the cooking appliances with melted plastic like this? It'd be a total pain to clean up and he'd likely be the one who'd suffer the most from it as he'd be the next one using the oven anyway.


It doesn't take much thinking to see through this: Jessicka's narrative implies she was young and inexperienced, she'd had an abusive childhood and didn't know what healthy relationships were like. Jack Off Jill's entire imagery is very much built on the idea of childhood trauma. Toys and children, nursery rhymes are present in the band's aesthetic.


This part is simply nothing but a ”he ruined my innocence” sort of a scene for the reader to be shocked by. Stuffed animals are children's toys and he makes Jessicka watch as they burn. It's ironic that a Jack Off Jill fan would fall for this trick, this is peak Jack Off Jill imagery. Surprised Jeordie wasn't described ruining barbies with a black marker and a bunch of needles.


But why does it seem that so much of her story revolves around a car? Both the 2017 statement as well as the fake email that is also discussed on this site. What is it?


Let's look at at that. A car takes you to where you need to go. Also, it's something that she has that Jeordie doesn't. Jeordie couldn't drive, he didn't have a car and he hadn't got a license. In the story, Jeordie is portrayed as stealing the car, driving erratically and also stopping Jessicka from driving to places. But when Jessicka drives someone else, Jeordie jumps into the river.


So if we just think about this for a bit. Just, well, the going places part of it.


Doesn't it kind of break down to this; She was supposed to be the one going places, but Jeordie stopped her always and Jeordie ended up going places. Well isn't that what happened after all? - Jessicka thinks she was supposed to be the one touring all over the world, she thinks Jeordie's success in Marilyn Manson sabotaged her career, and Jeordie ended up being the one who's touring and going places, getting where he wants to go. Jessicka thinks Jeordie stole her career.


This comes through in the ”He stacked junkyard tvs in front of my car so I could not leave.” As already stated on the page about it, this is pretty impossible. Because if Jeordie had no car and couldn't drive, then how did the get those tvs in the first place and from where? Doubt he could carry more than one at once anyway, as at the time tvs were still bulky and heavy. It's also not a very effective way to stop anyone from leaving, because in the time it takes to haul that bulky old tv to the parking lot, there's plenty of time to start the car and leave.


But symbolically; The television is something Jeordie had but Jessicka didn't. Jeordie appeared on tv multiple times in interviews and music videos, Marilyn Manson was quite the tv sensation, constantly covered by the media. Marilyn Manson also literally stacked tvs in the Mechanical Animals era. There was a cross made of televisions on stage and also the music video for I Don't Like The Drugs... At the same time, Jessicka got really no tv coverage at all, and it could be understood that the very fact that Jeordie did but she didn't caused some of the public to think she was a Twiggy copy, simply because they had seen Jeordie in the media first.


Junkyard tvs are broken. Is the tv a broken dream? Is Jeordie stacking tvs behind her car a metaphor for how she could not move on from their relationship because seeing Jeordie make his dreams true in the media was like twisting a knife in the wound? Jeordie reminds her of himself and she can't stop feeling bitter. She's not going places because Jeordie is, her tv is broken and Jeordie's isn't.


But did she break her tv because she saw Jeordie in it? People saw Jeordie in her character because it was similar to hers, did she lose her faith in herself and discard her own dream? As Jack Off Jill broke up, Jessicka said she was ”frustrated and vowed to never play in another band again.” But did her bitter feelings play a part in the downfall of Jack Off Jill?


It's also interesting that Jeordie's claimed to have jumped into the river in retaliation to Jessicka giving someone else a ride. So, is it that Jeordie would have destroyed himself and never gotten to the places he got, if Jessicka hadn't been with him? That if Jessicka's favor to him was taken away, Twiggy would simply stop existing, that career was ”his to steal” and no one else should be influenced by her because she was his source of ideas. A funny twist really, because Jessicka is the one that says she was the one and only source of inspiration for Twiggy, while Jeordie lists multiple people whose influence is very noticeable.


He jumps, he doesn't fall accidentally. He is his own demise. – It's pretty much something like ”You have no talent, you would have sunk by your own mediocrity but I gave you a ride, I could have done it to someone else and in fact I wish I had.”

It's a scene that's obviously meant to portray him as jealous but also put emphasis on him being mentally unstable and dangerous to both himself and others, but when you look at it as fiction, it becomes something different.


This also brings to mind the part in LHROOH where Manson's afraid that Jeordie will drown as they're both really high, Manson not feeling well. He hears Jeordie talking about a boat and fears he'll jump into the water and drown. Which makes me believe into it even less.


And then to the driving erratically and ripping off the rearview mirror. This is a very interesting scene.


It has the car analogy once again, he drives her car without a license, he sits in her seat. It has been pointed out that how does someone who can't drive just take a car and start driving fast while not paying attention to the road, that is actually pretty unlikely as a person who can't drive or hasn't driven much would find just the steering and fast speed alone terrifying and lose control of the car. This is why a driving teacher's car has brakes on the passenger side.


But from the point of view of fiction; Jeordie learned to drive suddenly, driving was a thing Jessicka could that he could not. Jessicka seems to believe that Jeordie had no ideas or talent where she had, and then suddenly he was doing that thing she was good at, it terrified her.


He sat on her seat, without a license, once again it is ”I was supposed to be the one going places, controlling this and getting the last word in this.”


And while driving, he's described to be hitting her, trying to keep her from taking control. But who is the one who's been making comments all this time, who wrote ”Nazi Halo,” who wrote snarky stuff on her website? She has been trying to take control of the narrative through the years, time and time again bringing up how Jeordie took her style, but it hasn't worked and Jeordie hasn't acknowledged her. It can feel like a hit, no one listens.


But has Jeordie ever publicly done anything that could be clearly understood as him trying to beat her down? Have not seen a thing. But, think of the broken TV, did she feel like Jeordie's success was stopping her from getting her own? Is she holding him responsible for something that actually happened or the feelings that she had about him?


A common issue in conflicts is, that you assume the other person intended to make you feel the way you feel because of them, and then you try to make them feel that way too to get even. If you're envious of someone, their success makes you feel belittled and discouraged, even ridiculed. But did they succeed with the intent to make you feel that way? Trying to discourage and belittle them certainly won't solve the problem.


As we go through this text, it does become clear that she wants him to feel humiliated more than anything, or does she realize she has gone too far in all of this and wants to make him feel guilty because it's her that's feeling guilty? She can't admit to going too far but she can blame Jeordie for making her feel the things that caused her to do so. Her story isn't true and she knows it.


The rearview mirror is simply yet another cliche, how many times have you heard the following quote or a variation of it: ”Don't look into the rearview mirror, that's not where you're going.”


I have also heard a version of this that goes, ”When I buy a new car I rip off the rearview mirror because I don't like to look back.”


The rearview mirror is simply a metaphor for the past.


So what happens in Jessicka's story? Jeordie drives her car and rips off the rearview mirror, throwing it out the window. She says he does this ”because he can't look at himself”. This could be understood that, as we connect this also to the car analogy, she's saying that Jeordie took her career from her and threw the past away, and now with this story, Jessicka is trying to say ”You forgot about me, you should know who gave this all to you, you wouldn't exist without me. I'm going to make you look in the mirror now.”


It's interesting here to note that Jeordie is taller than Jessicka. A driver does not see himself in the mirror when he sits down in the driver's seat, he sees the back window. The only way he would see himself is if the mirror was angled for a shorter driver. Therefore the only reason for Jeordie to ”have to look at himself” in the rearview mirror would be, exactly, if he sat in Jessicka's seat. I don't know if she thought of this, but it does go along with the narrative she's built; For him to see himself is for him to realize that he's sitting on someone else's seat. He's taken someone else's role; Gidget in the band, Jessicka in the dress.


Either she thought of this or she's admitting that she stretches her neck to check herself out in the rearview mirror while she's driving. Damn I look great! Why else would she think of Jeordie being forced to ”face himself” in the driver's seat? She certainly sees herself as someone very important by how she claims she's the only source of inspiration that there ever was for Jeordie and Jeordie dressed the way he did just to humiliate her, the songs he wrote or the fact that he is a talented musician also played no part in his success, it was all about looking like her...


And alright, I stated it already that I find it unlikely that someone who's not used to driving would be able to divert his attention away from the road and the wheel in order to rip out the rear view mirror, let alone throw it out of the window. A person who's not driven much is overwhelmed by everything you're supposed to pay attention to, and they're not used to the speed or the steering. I find this part of the story untrue. I remember my first driving classes very well.


Another thing is that this scene reminds me of some things that I would like to point out too.


First, let's get the song lyrics out of the way.


”I hate what I have become to escape what I hated being” and ”He wants to be me and that scares him” ”I wear this fucking mask because you can't handle me.” from the Manson song Organ Grinder. – Jeordie didn't write this song, he wasn't in the band when this was recorded but replaced Gidget Gein and appeared in the album booklet as Twiggy Ramirez despite not playing on the album, as Gidget Gein was fired before the promotional pictures were taken. Jeordie also wore a mask on stage after his return to the band.


”Dried up and changed my name, drift back behave the same. Want to believe in something else, digging my hole to hell. Drive away, drive away as fast as you can.” Sleep With A Gun, that Jeordie wrote for Goon Moon.


Then there was the movie, Palindromes, one of Jessicka's inspirations, where the girl who looks like Jessicka sits in the car with a guy who's changed his appearance and changed his name, literally become someone else. The same girl also sits in the car with an other older man, who's erratically driving away from the cops, she screams for him to slow down.

One of Jessicka's favorites, Hedwig And The Angry Inch, which is already discussed in the identity theft section, tells a story of a trans woman who's had her career stolen by an ex boyfriend. This "stolen ideas" story is revealed to the public as the two meet in a limousine and talk about song credits in the car and Hedwig gets distracted and crashes the car, which catches the media's attention and brings Hedwig's story out. Hedwig is seen in this scene through a camera angle that shows her face in the rearview mirror as she's driving. 

Can't believe I forgot to mention Natural Born Killers, a movie that Jessicka used to mention often in the 90's interviews. It was released in October 1994, in the middle of all this. Well there's plenty of erratic driving and a toxic relationship going on, but then this scene:

Mickey accidentally kills an old native american man who's tried to exorcise a demon out of him. Mickey is terribly resentful of shooting this man and tries to drive away, but the car won't start. He looks at the rearview mirror, but it seems the native american man had set some sort of a curse on him, so as he looks into the mirror, he sees a zombielike face flash in the mirror and screams, jumps out of the car.


Just plenty of things that she could have used for inspiration when writing this fanfiction. But there's more.


As I just stated, Jeordie would only see himself in the rearview mirror if he was sitting in a car that belongs to someone else. And it's said so that he threw away the rearview mirror ”because he couldn't stand to look at himself and face the things he's done” and ”maybe it was why he needed to become someone else.”


That someone else was Twiggy Ramirez, though Jessicka implies it was her that he wanted to become. But whatever the case; she implies Jeordie dressed as a woman to escape who he was. Does she imply this to show that she is the good person and Jeordie's not?


Or is it her playing with the ”Killer crossdresser horror trope”?. Because it really looks like she's playing with that to vilify Jeordie wearing dresses and makeup. Isn't that a bit... Transphobic? I mean yeah, Jeordie's not transgender, I know that, but this is a pretty hurtful narrative. ”Look, he was so fucked up he wore my dresses, he was so obsessed with me, he wanted to like, be me, what a creep!”


This is, at least, how a lot of the public could be lead to think, the ones who have no idea who Jeordie is and aren't familiar with the Twiggy character. They absolutely will see him as someone like Buffalo Bill from Silence Of The Lambs. Jessicka does know this. And she interestingly does list Silence Of The Lambs as her favorite movie too. I'll get to that in a minute for a bit more.


But yeah, so in this narrative, the woman is the good and the man is the bad. Or, the man Jeordie is is the evil and he wants to conceal himself into the clothes of the woman to feel good about himself. He throws away the mirror and his past, his past self, and puts on a dress. But this, woman is the good side and the man is the bad side, it is exactly what the Twiggy Ramirez name comes from, good vs evil, a celebrity and a serial killer. This is very interesting when we look into what got Richard Ramirez, the serial killer whose name Jeordie borrowed, caught.


It was the rearview mirror.


Richard Ramirez was finally identified when a car he'd stolen and discarded was discovered. Despite his attempts to carefully clean any trace of himself from the car, he'd forgotten to wipe the rearview mirror. Police found his fingerprint from the mirror and it lead to him being identified.


Richard Ramirez was unaware of himself being identified, and soon was caught in public, as he walked into a store and noticed people staring at him, whispering to each other ”He's the murderer” and he saw his own face in the newspapers. He tried to flee but was caught.


He threw away the entire car but his past still came to haunt him and he had to face what he did, -should've looked at the rearview mirror.


So it's quite interesting that Jeordie, who took on the name Ramirez, as claimed by Jessicka ”to escape his past,” threw away the rearview mirror in this story to ”avoid facing himself and the things he's done.” (=avoid getting caught simply)


And if you really wanted to get back at someone and ruin their career, the way Richard was caught sounds like a dream. Caught in public like that, everyone knows, everyone's judging. If you really hated Twiggy Ramirez, wanted to ”expose him” and saw a documentary describing how Richard Ramirez was caught, wouldn't it make you smile and think ”Well that would be quite fitting...” The intention is clearly for Jeordie to be ”exposed” in a similar way.


It's kind of clear too that she thinks Jeordie's success turned her character against her, it's not very far fetched to suggest she would want to turn his character against him.


Doesn't it look like her message to Jeordie is this: ”You forgot about me, you're ungrateful, you wouldn't have what you have without me. So if you want to be in the magazines and TV, you can be but I'll tell everyone who I think you are since you won't admit to it. Enjoy the fame!”


And so, Jeordie got to see his face in the newspapers and he was called a rapist by the whole world for a while. But he's not Richard Ramirez, initially what Jeordie and we all got to see was that Jessicka hates him enough to want the whole world to treat him like he was Richard Ramirez.


Going really deep into this now, but Jessicka wasn't happy about Jeordie returning to Marilyn Manson. And what happened upon his return to Manson was that he didn't call himself Twiggy Ramirez, he shortened it to Twiggy. The newspapers of course went with the full Twiggy Ramirez name, but still. To call him a rapist surely enforces that, ”Don't forget the Richard Ramirez side of yourself, don't try to leave it out and come back like nothing.” Could be, just a thought. I know how to be spiteful too.


It just really is an interesting detail that Jeordie is described throwing away a common symbol of the past, an item that got Richard Ramirez caught, in a story that puts him in the headlines, his face in the newspapers as a rapist monster like Richard Ramirez. To remind him of the 90s when he was Twiggy Ramirez, in retaliation to him daring to return to Marilyn Manson – without the name Ramirez.


But certainly, whatever the case, putting Twiggy Ramirez into this ”evil man wants to be a woman to avoid the truth about himself” is simply nothing but taking the name and twisting it to something evil, that he's Richard Ramirez disguised as Twiggy. It's just one of these too easy things, of course someone who doesn't know who he is will read this narrative and look at the character and go ”Oh my god it's so obvious just look at the name too.... a monster in plain sight.”


So what about Buffalo Bill? Why did Jessicka's story remind me of him? If you haven't seen the Silence Of The Lambs or read the book, Buffalo Bill is a serial killer who abducts women, usually those that are a bit plus size, he keeps them in the basement and starves them. He makes the women apply a lot of lotion on their skin to keep the skin in good condition, and then kills them, skins them and uses their skin to make himself a bodysuit so he can look like a woman.


The movie came out in the early 90's and sparked quite a controversy, as it does apply to the ”Killer crossdresser” horror trope. It was seen as a very harmful description of a transgender person. It was said that it vilifies the LGBT and and enforces the stigma of weirdness that there is to it. (It's a really good movie though, I'm not bringing this up to make her look bad for liking it.)


As the ”anti LGBT ” claims about this movie were going on in the media, the director Jonathan Demme commented on the situation, stating that Buffalo Bill "Wasn't a gay character. He was a tormented man who hated himself and wished he was a woman because that would have made him as far away from himself as he possibly could be."

Well, yeah. I thought of this quote when I read the following Jessicka's words;

"He just couldn’t bear to face himself in that mirror. So he proceeded to destroy it. Perhaps after everything he had done to somebody he claimed he loved was the sick reason he needed to become somebody else."

So, Jeordie, once again, according to Jessicka, started wearing dresses simply because there was something wrong with him. And he's described throughout the story as basically destroying Jessicka and then trying to become a different person out of guilt. The whole narrative is that he used her for his own benefit and then discarded her, destroyed her and took on her likeness.

It isn't far from Buffalo Bill, who kills women to wear their skin so he could be someone else.

But we have gone through this very well already, Jeordie did not steal Jessicka's identity, there's much more to it. And really, looking at what 90's Twiggy Ramirez was like, it didn't seem like an escape from anything, more that Twiggy Ramirez can do all kinds of crazy rockstar shit that Jeordie White may not dare. I don't know him but could guess that actually the Jeordie that hadn't yet joined Marilyn Manson was much more innocent and the Twiggy character allowed him to express himself more and do things he probably wouldn't have dared in the past. And this is not to say anything criminal, but well, rockstar stuff. Controversial art.

Similarly as Jessicka created her own character, it's not an act, it just brings out a certain side of her and allows her to get certain things across and take things further, like slicing her wrists on stage and putting candy in her panties, saying controversial things.

And just to point out, this driving scene after meeting Trent Reznor in a bar, it took place after Jeordie had already joined Manson and ”changed his style overnight”, why would he have a problem looking at himself if he already had changed? This night at the bar with Trent could be the POAAF release party which was in south Florida and where Trent was too, but it was in June or July 1994. Even if it wasn't that, it still is after Jeordie joining the band in Jessicka's timeline. Funnily enough, Jessicka claims Jeordie ”became someone else” in December 1993, then hated seeing himself and decided to become someone else afterwards? And in reality he started wearing the dresses and makeup in December 1994. The timeline doesn't even make sense any way you look at it, but alright.

But yeah, Buffalo Bill is quite interesting. He uses women and discards them, simply to wear them to be able to look at himself in the mirror. He doesn't rape women, but the act is quite similar with is motives really, he puts his own pleasure and comfort over someone else's right to their own life and body. He covets their bodies, he wants to have them just so he could love himself. Which brings us to this:

Is the word rape in her story also yet another way to enforce the ”You stole my career and left me with nothing” narrative? Would it be that it really is a question of ”artistic rape” to her, she feels she was used and then discarded, she believes Jeordie took her identity from her?

Because as you can read on the page about it, it doesn't really make sense either. And this whole story about the abuse really kind of seems to revolve around this stolen identity. But is rape really just a very short explanation of how she feels like she was used and forgotten? It's an exclamation mark to the stolen identity claim.

Just think about it: She has been talking about the stolen identity thing for years, with increasing frustration. And then suddenly; And also he raped me! It's like that car crash in Hedwig and the Angry Inch, it caught the media's attention and brought it in the spotlight how Hedwig's music career had been stolen by her ex boyfriend Tommy. Something dramatic happens that catches the media's attention and then brings out the thing that was needed to be out. Rape is added to the story only when it's in the media, it catches the attention, ”Now they'll notice what I have been saying!” (read the timing of the allegations section for more on this)

And as I stated before, she vilifies Jeordie's character, turns it into something sick, that part is so obvious at least to me, that I can't help but feel like the rape scene, after all it's inconsistencies and the confusion, how it doesn't even make sense, I can't see it as anything more than yet another trick to enforce her point. This is all about the stolen dress claim, that's what this started from and what it grew from, rape is nothing but another way to express that; Jessicka thinks Jeordie used her for his own gain, ruined her career while creating his own from her ideas. In a song lyric or poem, a fictional text, this could be described with the word rape.

It's also a way for her to justify this. She feels her art, her identity was stolen and she was humiliated and discouraged, she describes it as a rape. It's true to her, but not clarifying what kind of rape. It's ”Her truth”. And she can now say anything she wants and tearfully scream like Vi, ”But it happened!” and she did so with her pastel pink hair.

Life imitates art, or did art inspire it? Her story is nothing but movie references, made up cliches and twisting events from Jeordie's career into something else. Her description of the rape is straight from the movie, "Happiness". This is all, entirely made up. The intention is simply to make the public as angry as possible at him while telling him "I created you and you owe me everything." 

And just have to say that it's incredibly hypocritical to preach LGBT support on social media and then twist Jeordie's persona into something sick. I mean yeah, Jeordie's not trans or gay, but the hate towards men who dress androgynously arises from trans/homophobia. She goes against her values completely. 

What's completely erased from this story is that Jeordie has stated this publicly multiple times that he was always told he looked like a woman, was even made fun of for it. His Twiggy persona could be seen as a way of owning that, a "Yeah I do, so what?" and the way he related to the model Twiggy, took on the name and a dress out of respect for her is also completely erased to highlight Jessicka instead. That isn't exactly the "female empowerment" she's preaching either. This whole story is all just flaming hypocrisy and shows her values only apply to those that she thinks deserve it.

Pissed me off because honestly in my own trans "battle" growing up, I think Jeordie's looks and attitude were a healthy example for me and a big reason why I ended up growing a pretty thick skin for the entire situation with gender roles and whatever. He's kind of a big deal to me in that sense, how just a photo of him really had a massive impact on me. 

But it's funny she judges Jeordie for throwing away the rearview mirror and focusing on moving forward, when in reality that's what she should do and we're in this situation because she's fixated on the past. She thinks Jeordie focuses on the present and the future to escape his past, to avoid looking in the mirror, when actually maybe she should do just that herself; take a look in the mirror. And maybe move on. She is much more than a dress and it's kinda sad that in her own bitterness she has reduced herself into that, there was much more to her character, to her message than that dress. To throw all that away for a petty revenge doesn't turn her into a hero.


Because what an expression of pure hatred this is; She uses anti LGBT narratives to portray him as a total freak and also she portrays him as a rapist to get the public to hate him a bit more. That is the level of violence she wishes on him. At this point it does not even matter if he copied her, this is more malicious than that could ever be. She has become what she claims he is.


Jessicka's holding the entire world responsible for her own feelings, it's like we owe it to her to somehow give her everything Jeordie got and have to apologize to her for liking him. Here she's describing how her life was ruined because she wasn't the one who was successful and we have to feel bad. But I'm never going to apologize for being a fan of Jeordie, - consider this site a "I'm still clapping for an encore dude come back on stage."


And this has been my book review, I bet you didn't read this far.


To end this, a quote from Storytelling:


”The story is a piece of shit. You express nothing but banalities and, formally speaking, are unable to construct a single compelling sentence. You ride on a wave of cliches so worn, in fact, it actually approaches a level of grotesquerie. And your subtitle, 'The Rawness of Truth' – is that supposed to be a joke of some sort? Or are you just being pretentious?”