Manson's biography - Long Hard Road Out Of Hell

Alright, let's talk about how Manson's biography clashes with Jessicka's narrative. And no, not the contents of it that much, but the timing of it's release and the existence of it in general.


What made me really doubt the part about Jessicka ”planning to come out with her story already in 1997” is the fact that Marilyn Manson's biography book was released around the same time, in February 1998. So in 1997 it was in the process of being published. And Jessicka has made some comments regarding it earlier... Let's look into that.


What is widely known about this book is that Jessicka was not very well included in the story, despite her being there at the time, and Manson's depiction her is that she was more a groupie than a musician. Her relationship to Jeordie isn't really mentioned in the book, Jessicka is very largely left out, well, read for yourself, the part about former drummer Sara Lee Lucas and Jessicka:


”Like most everyone in our band, Freddy soon had several nicknames. On stage, he was known as Sara Lee Lucas. But we called him Freddy the Wheel. The name came from one of our first groupies, Jessicka, who went on to form Jack and Jill, a band that I renamed Jack Off Jill and took them under my wing briefly, performing with them a few times. When Freddy was a teenager, he had an accident and, while he was in the hospital, the muscles in his leg atrophied to the point where the limb deformed. As part of his rehabilitation, he learned to play drums.


Freddy was a good guy and I never treated him any differently than anyone else. But I always felt bad pushing him to play better – he was a shitty drummer and everyone knew it except Scott. Jessicka, however, didn't have any qualms about mocking him. She decided that Freddy had a wheel for a foot and should henceforth be known as Freddy the Wheel. She realized this, of course, after having had sex with him, so she was in no position to mock anyone because she had bowed down before the wheel and in fact, gotten caught beneath it.”


In 1998, as the book was released, this depiction of Jessicka as merely a groupie, Manson seemingly mocking her, made her very angry and it resulted in her writing the song Author Unknown about Manson to the last album of Jack Off Jill; Clear Hearts, Grey Flowers. This same album also interestingly contains the song Nazi Halo, that seems to be about Jeordie, (more on the lyrics page about that) but it's not necessarily a song that would be describing a rapist, abusive ex, rather it seems to mock Jeordie for various reasons and what at least to me comes through is just that she thinks Jeordie's fake and arrogant.


After Jack Off Jill had disbanded, Jessicka made her own separate website just for herself, and there was a Q&A section, where she was asked about what she thinks about what Marilyn Manson said in the book.


Since we are on the Manson topic, How did you feel about what he wrote about you in his book?
At first I was absolutely hurt and horrified that my involvement in his life had been reduced to a mere mention as a 'groupie' in LHROOH. The term groupie has such a negative connotation even if it means an admirer of a celebrity who attends as many of his or her public appearances as possible. I didn't think that all I was to him.

 I guess I didn't really see it that way because I had always considered myself a friend an musical equal more than a groupie. While the book was written, his ex-guitar player Scott joined my band (at the time Scott had a lawsuit pending against Manson.) I think because we hadn't spoken about it he took that as a slight against him. He (Manson) claims that he was furious with me and I had no idea. It also didn't help that my ex-boyfriend had become Manson's right-hand man and had always been envious that Manson and I had a lot in common.


With all of that I believe that is why he wrote what he wrote about me. He called me right after Scott was no longer in the band. I know he believes that his influence was the reason Scott parted ways with Jack Off Jill but in essence his involvement had just run its course. I told Manson how hurt I was about what he had written; he explained that at the time he felt that I was no longer his friend and that while the original idea of his book was being thrown around New Orleans, I had asked him not to go into detail about mine and Twiggy's tumultuous relationship. He felt that by deleting me from certain events in his life that he had kept his promise.


More on this whole thing on the Manson/Jessicka friendship page. You can pretty clearly see on there that it was Jessicka who was envious of Jeordie's association and friendship with Manson.


But yeah. Jessicka claimed in the 2000s that she herself had asked Manson not to go into detail about this ”tumultuous relationship” with Jeordie. But at the same time, Manson ”felt that Jessicka wasn't his friend anymore”, and the depiction of Jessicka in the book isn't exactly positive.


(Note that tumultuous doesn't necessarily mean abusive, rather it implies they argued a lot. It has been discussed though that Jessicka was the abusive one, for example Lisa LeSeur stated in an interview that it was Jessicka being verbally and physically abusive towards Jeordie. According to her, this was generally known in their social circles.)


So, Jessicka first said that no one knew about any abuse at all and physical therapy for an elbow injury triggered her repressed memories, remember?


Marilyn Manson also stated, as he announced parting ways with Jeordie in 2017, that ”I never knew about any of these allegations.”


But so the 2017 final claim was that Jessicka planned to come out with her allegations in 1997. Why would she ask Marilyn Manson not to go into detail? Did Manson know Jeordie's side of the story that was less in favor of Jessicka? I mean why else would he make fun of her ”while keeping his promise.” Why would he even be sympathetic towards Jessicka enough to be keeping any promises if he "didn't think Jessicka was his friend" and he was best friends with Jeordie at the time.


This doesn't make sense really at all.


One thing that I could think of for this could be, that, as you can read on the Manson/Jessicka page, Jessicka seems to like to kinda twist things into looking like they're more in favor of her. I don't really buy the Scott joining JOJ as a reason for their friendship suffering part honestly either. - Manson didn't exactly attack Jeordie for working with Trent Reznor even though Trent and Manson had a very public falling out over this same book.


Could it be that Jeordie and Jessicka in fact had a relationship that included a lot of arguing, Manson knew Jeordie's side of the story, but maybe Jeordie asked him not to discuss it? - He has never publicly been a part of any kind of drama and keeps his privacy pretty well, his dating history is not really something that is widely discussed, - well, until now. And despite all kinds of comments being made about him, he has never really wanted to publicly acknowledge any of it, he doesn't really play along if someone starts shit


Or maybe including Jessicka's involvement would mean having to include the drama between her and Jeordie and Manson saw it as irrelevant and expressed it this way? I mean it's a book about him, not about his bass player's relationship drama. - And Jessicka, liking to twist things into her favor, did so, implying that Manson did it out of respect for her as she discussed this in the 2000's, when in general she was implying that Manson had "gotten rid of" Jeordie and was now best friends with Jessicka. 

But for Jessicka, there really isn't any other reason to ask Manson "not to go into detail" than it possibly making her look bad? 


Whatever the case, based on LHROOH and Jessicka's 2000s words, if something happened, Manson knew about it as a close friend of both of them, it didn't result to anything else except him making fun of Jessicka, and later Manson again stated that he never knew anything about anything like Jessicka's been describing. It's really confusing compared to her 2017 claims too. 


If her claims were true, this whole thing would probably not have resulted in her staying friends with Manson in the 2000s, something she very much tried to deny later, claiming she hasn't supported him as an artist or a person since like 2001.

The fact that the Addams tried to shrug off the contents of her past website as irrelevant "because the site was run by a fan" tells enough, that she would have wished this detail not to be brought up, thinking no one can use wayback machine. It was an official website and this detail was in the fan Q&A, so Jessicka did write this text and it was online for years for everyone to see.